here i am sipping absolut rubyred mixed with cranberry and blackcurrent (alc supposed to keep me awake ya..) when it's about less than nine hours to tax tom. i wonder how long i can sustain...

you see, that's how last min i can be )':


Ramadan (Arabic: رمضان, Ramaḍān) is an Islamic religious observance that takes place during the ninth month of the Islamic calendar, when the Qur'an was revealed.

Fasting
The most prominent event of this month is the daytime fasting (sawm) practiced by most observant Muslims. Every day during the month of Ramadan, Muslims around the world get up before dawn to eat and perform their fajr prayer. They break their fast when the fourth prayer of the day, Maghrib (sunset), is due.

During Ramadan, Muslims are also expected to put more effort into following the teachings of Islam as well as refraining from lying, stealing, anger, envy, greed, lust, sarcastic retorts, backbiting, and gossip. Obscene and irreligious sights and sounds are to be avoided; sexual activities during fasting hours is also forbidden.[Qur'an 2:187] Purity of both thought and action is important. The fast is intended to be an exacting act of deep personal worship in which Muslims seek a raised level of closeness to God. The act of fasting is said to redirect the heart away from worldly activities, its purpose being to cleanse the inner soul and free it from harm. Properly observing the fast is supposed to induce a comfortable feeling of peace and calm. It also allows Muslims to practice self-discipline, sacrifice, as well as sympathy for those who are less fortunate, intending to make Muslims more generous and charitable.

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gosh. so it's for the above reasons that muslims are supposed to fast.
i had just witnessed a terrifying incident on my way back from woodwood. As i strolled home, ignorant to all things as usual, a skinny malay lady feebly beckoned for me to stop. Sobbing away, she told me her discomfort and how she had just regained conciousness from fainting. Thankfully, there were two chinese men who had helped call her fiance but she had difficulty communicating with them and needed my help. But i was so helpless. :'( I asked if she needed the ambulance, offered her water and gave her tissue. That was all i could do before her worried fiance came along soon after.

It was indeed frightening. the mere thought of fainting in the middle of the night along the streets makes me shudder. She's really fortunate to have met two kind men and have a fiance to be there for her (you cant imagine the relief in her voice when she saw him!) there's so much love in this world and im so inspired by the two chinese men!

fasting/skipping meals is scary. so to all those already skinny people out there, dont push your limits alright. take your meals regularly! as for those who are fasting, please eat well after break fast times!

this makes me think that fasting is too much of a sacrifice. how can one's health be compromised? there are indeed many things i still do not understand. now, i wonder if anyone has protested against the idea of fasting.
and if the muslim community were to chance upon my entry, i will be so dead.
but well, my main objective was to caution those who are dieting/skipping meals to quit their unhealthy habits. so pardon me okay.


i want to focus. but it's so tough! tax quiz is tom but i still cant find my motivation. URG
i ought to be killed! it's not supposed to be an internal struggle cause the angel is supposed to psycho me to study and the devil is supposed to remind me of how tragic my grades already are. but it seems like i cant even be bothered with both the angel and the devil living inside me. only losers admit defeat and i havent even started the battle. see how hateable i am. ROARS!i can go on for a million years on how sick/stressed i am and all i do is procrastinateprocrastinateprocrastinate! SLAP ME plsss... i just feel so restless i wanna strangle the ragdoll again

after meeting up with cpa aust today, it's like a load lifted off my chest cause i'm finally handing over all the duties of a biz mag! but no doubt there's still a tinge of sadness...

oh yea. i promised to return to talk about WED and THUR!
getting all emo and teary really isnt the norm for all-smiles cheery girls like us, but on wed we just couldnt help it as we were flooded with memories of the past. there are some things that still return to haunt us time after time though they have happened many years ago. it's only part of the growing-up phase so i suppose we just need a while longer. most of all, we seek solace in the fact that we can share the unspeakable, trust one another and be there for each other. even our mistakes and fears resonate our similarities! indeed, i can feel the distance betw us closing up! lovelove vicvic! :D thankew for all these and more!
sweet memories of year one sem one

leeweenam mugging and cam-whoring

life's a learning journey and it's the falls that make us appreciate what we have more.

we really dont like being emo but sometimes, we just need to let it all out and it will be sunshine after the rain again! let us be brave!

fact of the day:
Boredom can lead to madness in parrots. When caged by themselves and neglected for long periods of time, these intelligent, sociable birds can easily become mentally ill. Many inflict wounds upon themselves, develop strange tics, and rip out their own feathers. The birds need constant interaction, affection, and mental stimulation; some bird authorities have determined that some parrot breeds have the mental abilities of a 5-year-old human child. Should a neglected parrot go mad, there is little that can be done to restore it to normalcy. In England, there are "mental institutions" for such unfortunate creatures.

can humans be bored to devastation? bah... more like my slackness leads to poor results which brings about devastation :((( when i count the number of "but"s i use in every entry, i know how i've been trying to wriggle out of things by finding excuses everytime


to help tide through the nasty stressful week, watch how creative the japs are!
many thanks to my dear cousin fred! :D



and this is my favourite lagu for now. googoogagee (babytalk *winks)




i like act cute language! :)))

thankew-wo-way HA-FI-FO-FAY!

let's hear you to sing to...

bukan cinta biasa, siti nurhaliza

Begitu banyak cerita,
Ada suka ada duka,
Cinta yang ingin ku tulis,
Bukanlah cinta biasa
Dua keyakinan beza,
Masalah pun tak sama,
Ku tak ingin dia ragu,
Mengapa mereka slalu bertanya,

Cintaku bukan di atas kertas,
Cintaku getaran yang sama,
Tak perlu di paksa,
Tak perlu di cari,
Kerna ku yakin da jawabnya,
Andaiku bisa merubah semua,
Hingga tiada orang terluka,
Tapi tak mungkin ,
Ku tak berdaya,
Hanya yakin menunggu jawabnya....
Janji terikat setia,
Masa merubah segala,
Mungkin dia kan berlalu,
Ku tak mahu mereka tertawa,
Diriku hanya insan biasa,
Miliki naluri yang sama,
Tak ingin berpaling,
Tak ingin berganti,
Jiwa ku sering saja berkata
Andai ku mampu ulang semula,
Ku pasti tiada yang curiga
Kasih kau hadir
Tiada terduga
Hanya yakin menunggu jawapan


im throwing tantrums like a little kid.
how i wish i can throw all my notes away.
(and i remb being excited for school to start!how ironic, it's alr half a sem!)
GRRR...
here i am lamenting about my stressed up life
when i jollywell should be using the time to study for sat's tax quiz/read up co law text so as to start with co law assignment due next fri/ read acct for next sat's acct quiz/ catch up with the oh-so-many tutorials i havent done
SCREAMS! im in trouble. this so isnt recess week
and it's already friday tom? IM SO UPSET! :(
*slap, punch, whack, kill me please

shall return later to blog about libraries, studies, life, wonderful friendships and vicvicdearie!

btw, has anyone seen the new cadbury train? it's so cute!
buy cadbury today! to support the children cancer society! :D

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Don't stray, don't ever go away
I should be much too smart for this
You know it gets the better of me
Sometimes, when you and I collide
I fall into an ocean of you, pull me out in time
Don't let me drown, let me down
I say it's all because of you
And here I go, losing my control
I'm practicing your name so I can say it to your face
It doesn't seem right, to look you in the eye
Let all the things you mean to me
Come tumbling out my mouth
Indeed it's time to tell you why
I say it's infinitely true
sway, bic runga

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks
Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down
it's my life, bon jovi
my all-time-fav-stress-relief song indeed

Have you ever felt a breeze hit your heart.
Like the wind was blowing it apart.
Had you spinning like a merry-go-round.
Indications of a storm touching down.
I wish that I could weather any storm.
But I guess it was heartbreak from the norm.
It was a day that I will always remember.
The saddest day in sweet November.
lately, samantha mumba

and we save the best for the last...

Let it all out (get it all out)
Rip it out, remove it
Don't be alarmed when the wound begins to bleed
Cuz we're so scared to find out (what this life's all about)
So scared we're gonna lose it
And knowing all along that's exactly what we need

And today I'll trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
But tomorrow upon hearing what I did,
I'll stare at you in disbelief
Oh inconsistent me! ...crying out for consistency

And You said, "I know that this will hurt,
but if I don't break your heart, things will just get worse.
If the burden seems too much to bear,
remember...
The end will justify the pain it took to get us there

And I'll let it be known (times I have shown)
Signs of all my weakness
But somewhere in me, there is strength

And You'd promise me, that You believe
In time I will defeat this
'cuz somewhere in me there is strength

And today I'll trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
I'll try my best to just forget that that man isn't me

Reach out to me, make my heart brand new
Every beat will be for You...for You...
And you know, and you know
When You touched my heavy heart, you made it light
let it all out, relient k


first of all, for a certain ninnypoop, this week's free access week. it's double HOORAY for those who hate to praise me everytime you enter this site! heh. no worries, you get to continue next week.

it's been a long time since i last blogged. cause i've been forcing myself to blog only until i've done work but obviously, ive been procrastinating so i dont get work done and i dont get blogging done. URG (learning from vicvic, whom im meeting tom!(: )

TAX! for now, that's my heaviest burden, biggest luggage, most dreaded thing, greatest worry and scariest monster or rather most disgusting giant-pearl-necklance-like-worm! this refers to those worms that start to flood the stairway to the roofgarden towards s4. cries. when will their "season" be over again. those frightening creatures come in all shapes and sizes and they never fail to make my heart pound and knees wobble. then i wonder if ntu is like a jungle. ewwwie creepy crawlies gave me a horrendous nightmare even URG URG. sigh. but we have to get tax quiz done and over with so let's GO! power up guys! after that will be partying (abc farewell dinner and bingxiang's 21st!)

1.
TODAY WITH THE DEANS ( and some mooncakes, choco eclair )
HAPPY MID-AUTUMN! not-very-happy-stepping-down feeling especially after reading edlyn's sweet testimonial for all of us. last acad year was indeed a blast. :)

2.
MONDAY
after draining tax and acct proj, i was fasting (not really actually, if u count popping mentos ) till 7pm! thankew sillybean for making an empty trip to school to do fetching. i was so mad at your empty promises (yet again) if you didnt know cause i even bought your ahpek chestnuts for you. LOL. okie that aside, thanks for chuck and larry though it was qt a bad show. we both felt the way they protrayed homosexuals in the show is quite demeaning. it's so disappointing cause adam sandler's shows are supposed to be good. half the time, i was wishing dinner could come sooner too! heh. anyhow, what happened after movie was just zimzamzoom! LOL. you dont know what people can do when they are too starved. almost anything tastes exceptionally good, especially when you just keep gobbling and stuffing. (cries! me and my gozilla appetite!) bet it was entertaining for the chefs behind the glasspane to watch us eat. shopping was at zoomzoom speed till you punched me and got caught by someone! *hushhush*

i understand our differences. when i ask if there's someone who can accept you completely, it was only because i dont like being in denial. i guess there are many things i will not understand and not see them in the same light. i hope you would love yourself more. nonetheless, i know how all of us value the friendship with you such that we would avoid saying anything that will possibly jeopardise it. i wonder if it's the same for everyone. can we be ignorant to certain things so long as everyone can still be happy? does that work like a silent compromise?

3.
SUNday at 2350h
it's been qt a while since sistie and i hung out tog for madrush shopping! today's 1.5hr was indeed well-spent. our neoprints are delightfully sweet! tho the both of us were blotchy and all, we had great fun all the same, rediscovering how to design neoprints and reliving those good old days. i love my sistie!
visited grams to pass her the eastocean mooncakeys i bought for her! how delighted she was! so were my folks! :)

4.
SATURDAY night fever (high like all saturdays)
we went bb macs to mugmug and shake along to "sweet dreams are made of these. who am i to disagree. i travel the world and the seven seas..." we so love mambo songs! and they are indeed from my parents' era. they have heard sweetdreams before! i like staying over at geokie's! felt like it's been a while. oh yes. there was shopping for mooncakeys and i still like looking at my new silky flips when i walk! WHEE! it's crazy how much fun that night was :) five episodes of majo no jouken! that's about five hours straight! makes one think about all kinds of forbidden love. i think mutual love is hard enough to come by. what's worse if it's forbidden. how tragic. well, geokies has transformed to an aunty! join the club! anyhow, the show made me like the song "first love" again. watch this!
it's part one of episode one of majo no jouken. just listen to the intro song from 2.40min :)



this reminds me - prison break! geez! episode one hints that the new season will be of michael being stuck in hellish prison of sona. he will try to devise yet another ingenious plan to break out. a little disappointed that this season's gonna be another chase of police and thief. but i like prison break all the same. and i can only reward myself with all the shows that are lining up, screaming for me to watch them, only after i study! sigh.

Savage Garden - Crash and Burn
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

i've found a new hobby! singing can be a lot of fun! while the moonface stares into the velvet sky, we belt out the many songs playing inside our heads, one after another. we sit at some unfamiliar place but it feels so peaceful. i like nights, alot still. this time round, i know i can see it clearer and everything's better. somehow, your eyes see what your heart wants them to. it's like im more blind than ever. fix my gaze, not. and im glad for that.

fact of the day




today's SUNDAY!
and i promised it will be FREE ACCESS DAY! :D (ie. u need not praise me for today!)

shall return to blog about prison break episode one *yay!* and my happy twentysecondofseptember!


these days i have a habit to reminisce
about small happy incidents.
it's quite unhealthy
cause i would want to return to last year
only because it was more carefree, not that im sad now or anything. ha.such turtle-ly behaviour huh

last year was really eventful!
besides the first six months of endless working (pretty enriching experience tho), i had an equally crazy share of fun after work and i miss mustafa already.then was my first trip overseas with my friends! to amazing thailand, specifically phuket (quoted as the land of the lemon and the chilli, the sea of the sotong and the prawn! lol! i miss those days so badly! those cranky calls! ) last yr was also about meeting new people and forging new bonds. i am still very thankful to be part of Castor in NBSFOC. all you people are more than wonderful. :) tho abc did give me quite a bit of stress, i truly enjoyed my term of office. thankew 17th comm for making the journey all worth it. of course, special thanks to dear bizmags and fc!much loves! and there was krabi, to sum up the year beautifully.

i guesstimate ( = guess + estimate. new word learnt from HG801, first used by george w.bush) that it's only because when the going gets tough that i find ways to escape, to want to leave things behind and return to the happy-go-lucky days. well, everyone has to move on. i shall set my heart on my studies, having given myself sucha long undeserving break. everyone boleh!
i can already smell the exams ):

wednesdays are good, especially today. 'cuase i'm adapting, well.
lunch was especially good when shared :) hopefully we can have acct intv and study/shop on sat, belbel! hg801 lect was really interesting. (today came the question of which elective i will SU, should i decide to. im not confident of doing well for malay and hg801 mini quiz was badly done. but i am ambitious enough to not want to SU any. i like both! since there's still time to think, later then) a couple of hours ago, i went jogging with shin and that brought back really sweet memories of our ac days - tucking in at dover market, speedy showering after pe and going green. LOL. and i hope we can stick to "wednesdays are qianqi" days dearie! even a simple dinner is good! :)

OKIE FOLKS! i promise to be back an hour and a half later to report about prison break season three episode one! YAY! cause i know i wont be able to wait till tom to mention how good the show will be!

fact of the day
bren and i washed the toilet today! i magicleaned the room even! :D
i can already foresee myself missing u toiletmaties!



groove to the tunes of:

So after all's said and done
I know I'm not the only one
Life indeed can be fun
If you really want to
Sometimes living
out your dreams
Ain't as easy as it seems
You wanna fly
around the world
In a beautiful balloon

answer to yest's poem :
1. all at once -the fray
2. time after time - eva cassidy
3. back to black - amy winehouse


I wander through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
and I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes
before it's too late, goo goo dolls

it's too late
im so tired
but i cant leave

i cant get sleep cause there's acct proj
i so hate acct proj. okie. only for today.
BIG YAWNS

all at once
like creepy crawlies,
it gnaws at me
like bugs i cant bust
it's trash i cant throw
i become
my own foe
time after time
back to black

im a poet in the making. HOHO :D
alliteration ogayy with three song titles!
anyone who can guess them correctly gets a prize! (one of the songs is a giveaway!geez)
maybe i should start a "get lucky" song-guessing section after my fact of the day column!


when all i do is to stomach it,
trying to type out my thoughts becomes difficult
work is piling and i already feel suffocated enough

prison break's loading at snail speed
FASTER FASTER!
i so wished i didnt remb wrongly, that this week's really e-learning week
boohoo. we're already moving into half the sem and i'm still so clueless about alot of stuff! a life buoy anyone?

while having martini with jo and geok at this atas bar at oriental hotel yest, i felt a twinge of envy for those intelligent people out there. and yest, there were two! (lol. excluding me of course) while im still stuck at pulau ntu in singapore, smartietarties are going overseas, meeting new people and experiencing totally different things. not that being stuck here sucks, but being smart and hardworking grants them a global studying experience and i can just see a whole bright future ahead of them. it's hard not to want to be in jo's position. then i wish i were half as smart.
thanks for bringing us to sucha nice place! cheers to chocolatini, appletini and lycheetini! take care at london dearie! big hugs!

today, i just had an idea of a fab gift for my sistie when she goes for exchange. it's sth that requires a little effort everyday. whee! :D

fact of the day




i cant wait i cant wait! screams!

i missed michael scofield!
but this also means that it's the mugging season since my fav exam companion is soon to be released!
yikesyikes! i dare not watch the preview for fear that i will die of anxiety while waiting! :S



sigh. why is getting down to doing work so tough?


looking through the photos in the afternoon, i realised how much i miss my holidays! )))):
and this is only krabi.
here's what krabi is famous for.



this is my favourite picture (tho i cant tilt it blea)
when the moon meets the sun.
spot the little crescent moon and salmon orange bits of the sun



and we were lucky enough to enter this church!
i swear thailand has the most endearing people.
they specially unlocked the place just for us to look around.
and our very nice tuktuk driver was kind enough to wait for us while we roamroam.



then at phi phi island!
i saw the cutest kids! there's just sth about me and malay kids larrr
i named them ALI & BABA!
sigh. i so wanted to bring them home.
help me visit them when u go again this year end, okie!!!



ohyes.the good food! they serve heart-shaped rice!



alrighty. it was a good sunday. visited both grams. high time i buy dear granny mooncakeys! btw, saturday night fever was WAY TOO HIGH! lol. bestie and i had the best food (RAMEN yet again!) while singing to "shot through your heart". look at this! i insist it should be arrows but you say it should be guns! gee...





and this is our fav dine together picture!

i love retail therapy! and my bestie! u have MEEEEE! now, show me a big grin! :D
cant wait for mon's martini with jo! can everyone not go overseas for exchange/studies?
i start to think how much i will miss my sistie and how hard it is to endure that deafening silence when you're not home

currently listening to:
hey there dalilah - plain white t's

these days, the impression gets bad
maybe it should be that way
but right, life is good
i like it the way it is! :D
let's do the hippo SMILE! *twist*

fact of the day




i've decided to be interracial today.
let's promote some racial harmony :D
i know it's supposed to be 21 july. i'm so outdated, i know.

mooncakey festival zhong qiu jie is here!
it's sucha pleasant sight to see tiny malay kids happily carrying plastic lanterns! today, i shall wish them HAPPY THIRD DAY of the fasting month. in many ways, i think the muslims sacrifice a lot. and fasting is only one of them. perhaps, such religious restrictions are merely constant reminders of the presence of god in their lives and not viewed as sacrifices.

fasting = tidak makan dan minom, from wee hours in the morning till they break fast at about 7pm. and my malay classmates back in ac told me that fasting times are almost different setiap hari (everyday) cause they are determined by what time the sun rises and sets! so, some of them actually follow the traditional mtd of listening to the radio to find out the timings! how interesting!

black or white. let's be racist,not.
character counts far more than color really.

i'm turning to snowskin mooncake at woodwood! brrrr... HAPPY WEEKEND to all!
i LOLO my bestie! *happy buttshakes*
~sings to grey sky morning!
soooo sweetly antique (:

"Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)"
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

fact of the day
anyway, i really cant wait for this week to end. i've been terribly slack.
here's a toast to fellow slackers!
join the club! CHEERS!




im a bad kid.

imabadkid reason one:
im allowing myself blogging time when i have work's that long overdue and i havent tried to flatten the skyhigh pile today. well, i can only say that i wanted to blog on sept 11 but i didnt cause i offended pp all because it was a PMS (pissing myself sick) day. oddly, it was a bluer day than monday. must be because it's 911 )':
i wanted to blog yest at 5am but i didnt simply because that 5 mins of freshness didnt last long enough. plus, i was long concussed before i even realised. to think that i even wanted to attempt to do my acct tut. who are you kidding jacq! LOL. it's just like how i could zone out for a whole five seconds while giving my malay boy listening compre at tuition today. it's embarrassing tho i think he didnt really catch me! it just goes to show what im doing is really unhealthy ):

imabadkid reason two:
mambo jambo. to think that i should be catching up on work and tax cause there's no tax for this week, so all of us are feeling more relieved and we can reward ourselves with a mini celebration after hg801 mini quiz (the quiz didnt go too well but i always feel happy once it's over). but no. neither did i study at the library nor complete my tut for this week. yet, i went mambo. argh. okay, nvm.
MAMBO is crazy! ulu me and my first time to mambo and velvet! lol. been to zouk a few times but somehow, it's always not a wednesday. sorry that i didnt "allow" a certain someone to join us. sorry steph. hope i didnt jeopardise your future happiness with you-know-who. it's fun to go with close friends and not to worry. like lum said, there is still a long list of people! we can easily come up with ten names! anyways, the night started with our market-like noisy chatters in the cab, coupled with nonstop friendly jacking (like lum is steph's girlfriend and they must protect each other etc.). then we met up with 2 of steph's friends and moved on from line of trust talk to a HIGHly action-packed guessing game. finally, at steph's calls of "let's go mambo!" we followed her "figure of 8" trails to the dance floor, thankfully still sane enough to take care of her. music wasnt so good at mambo but we had fun all the same, following actions of lum, the mambo king! :D the first few things that came to me when we started dancing was how nice the feeling of liberation is. somehow, clubbing with the right company gives me that undescribable happiness, possibly derived from being able to loosen up, forget myself and shed the mask that everyone puts on as part of being so self-conscious.

imabadkid reason three:
if mambo isnt bad enough, i went bugbug shopping with bren and geok today. that's after surviving a day from only 3 hours of sleep and one hour of power nap. we managed to cover quite a lot of shops and met our objective too despite being three zombies!

imabadkid. period.
i'm killin myself with bad time management and placing fun at first priority. i should really quit it and not do things that i WANT to but do things that i NEED to! cries! what happened to the motivation behind that "get to dean's list" desire??? growls. jacq boleh!!! focus and discipline please!

fact of the day:


btw, i am officially moving out of hall by dec cause sistie is going norway for exchange and i really should be home to take care of mumsy. anyone who wants to stay with my shining roomie can lemme know! sorry dear )':
i dedicate this song to you! i know we love it! it's addictive!
sean kingston - beautiful girls

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

See it started at the park
Used to chill after dark
Oh when you took my heart
That's when we fell apart
Cause we both thought
That love lasts forever (lasts forever)
They say we're too young
To get ourselves sprung
Oh we didn't care
We made it very clear
And they also said
That we couldn't last together (last together)

See it's very divine,
you're one of a kind
But you mash up my mind
You have to get declined
Oh Lord...
My baby is driving me crazy

It was back in '99
Watchin' movies all the time
Oh when I went away
For doin' my first crime
And I never thought
That we was gonna see each other (see each other)
And then I came out
Mami moved me down South
Oh I'm with my girl
Who I thought was my world
It came out to be
That she wasn't the girl for me (girl for me)

Now we're fussin'
And now we're fightin'
Please tell me why
I'm feelin' slighted
And I don't know
How to make it better (make it better)
You're datin' other guys
You're tellin' me lies
Oh I can't believe
What I'm seein' with my eyes
I'm losin' my mind
And I don't think it's clever (think it's clever)

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it'll never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal, suicidal...

this isnt a very good video. low quality! but well, just make do. ha


p.s. mark, stop playing cupid! LOL
you are more eager than i am about my own life! and i bet shane is equally nonchalent! i swear you are the only friend who is free enough to do such things! but it's sweet of you to care tho i dont want that sorta help, for now.



today's monday blues party was a merry affair. nice blue balloons and blue roses now swaying happily in one corner of my room. i cant wait to look at pictures from abby and denyse! our gorgeous blue photos with the simpsons poster!

well, i'm too exhausted to blog today! though i really wanted to talk about how first impressions count, i thought i could save that for another day! *yawns
fact of the day
this trivia toon's for you steph! my dearest friend who can truly appreciate the wonders of all kinds of food! heh. i miss you too! it's great that things have got a nice twist now! and that you've salvaged it! :) hugs!




today i saw how ugly singaporeans can be, specifically how ugly i was.
eeks. jacq hodoh :(((
i tried to make up for it ( by being nice to other people ) but no, i still feel bad about the whole incident. im too embarrassed to mention what i did. so let's just move on while i sit on it and make sure i never do that again. to that poor lady who was cursing me under her breath, im truly sorry. :(

BOSS CHONG'S TREAT
i would say that today's a fantabulous day all in all! boss chong, abbywebby, longlong and i talked for say five hours, had a good lunch at ajisen *drools at the thought of crayfish ramen* and went over to tcc for more drinks. it was so nice seeing your familiar face that was much missed at our random abc events. sigh. i dont like graduation and the idea of leaving school. grr. the peterpan syndrome is kicking in again.

we really had a great time, laughing, talking, trashing out every single thing, listening to grandpa chong's sobsob stories and asking for more touchy (literally, HAHA) stories! so if we had to let someone take the blame, let's just blame it on fate for the way things has turned out and for the mistakes everyone makes in life. it's about time to get rid of that evergreen label. may cupid shoot you with that arrow soon! well, i do feel bad having no stories to share and i really dont see cupid's arrows anywhere near. but im relatively happy for the way it is :) back to boss! boss, it was so sweet of you to meet us up in small groups, to catch up and keep that one foot in nbs! ;) small group get-togethers are most effective and they show 100percent sincerity! now, i cant wait for our DEF shirt and meeting abbywebby soon to hear your stories! *winks!

fact of the day
today's trivia toon goes to you, boss chong! without having to hold your breath, you look equally red after drinking a can of beer! LOL. you seriously need to learn how to hold your liquor in order to go to cheena and find yourself mrs chong ( or rather, miss chingchong! ) haha



saturday night was about being half a wanderteen, gobbling ichiban's sumptuous food, being bad ( cause i was unable to go for your party ) and falling in love with how magnificent museum negera is at night (not that it looks terrible in the day but it's simply gorgeous when illuminated by street lamps and orangey candle-ish lightings). the national museum, chijmes, this atas place at bugis which is set up by some hongkong tycoon, riverside and clarke quay, just to name a few. i wish i could take a nightwalk and be intoxicated! so for those who still think that our country is boring with so few attractions blah blah, COME TO ME! let me show you around this a beautiful country! but it could have been a better night without your empty promises. i know how demanding i can be, how tired you were and how long you've waited. maybe you shouldnt promise more than you can offer. puts me in a bad light.

i know there are times when i take my friends forgranted. but i never thought of having friends to leech on them. maybe it's because we're such close friends that i become more frank and consequentially, less sensitive and more direct with my requests. that's no excuse, i know. it's just jacq becoming more and more hodoh :( no doubt we are getting grouchier and sleepier these days. we should just meet november first, 2008. we shall see who's sincere enough to remember :) till then, we would have so much to share about what has happened in one year.


i was supposed to blog last night
with alot of issues to discuss
also because it was friday night
which means i'm allowed to sleep late
and do whatever i like
but, when im home, there's no such thing as sleeping past two am
daddy wouldnt allow that

sat's mugging day! :D so hopefully i can gulit-freely catch evan's tonight!
great songs to chase those mugging blues away!

one headlight - by the wallflowers


you know i'm no good - by amy winehouse



AHEM AHEM!
-clears throat-

i passed my final theory! :D :D :D

okay! no big deal to some of you smartypants out there! but it was so nerve-wrecking for me, considering that i was still at page 70sth (about half of the book) 30secs before i started the test. yesyes, i went to take the test without completing the book :S how terrible! so i must really thank lady luck for being there! most importantly, i would like to thank my friends, my lucky stars! ;)
here's my thankew speech!!!
in no order of merit okayyy :)

thankew vicvic for calling to gimme support and wishing me luck! you are the first i called to tell the news! :D
thanks din for the 5mins crash course after ratrat! you gave me tips on both occasions and it helped me a great deal really!!!
thanks sistie for chanting "goodluck goodluck" before i raced out of the house!
thanks jer for praying for me :) your prayers always work for some reason!
thanks lum for telling me that you took 3 trial tests (and passed without having to read the book) when i bumped into you! those practice questions are really repeated! whee!
thanks ssdcl for letting me book the trial test four hours before my actual test! it was tons better than reading the book!

A BIG GROUP HUG FOR ALL OF YOU dearies!
terima kasih!!!
so now you should say "jacq pandai five times!"
muahaha!

BUT,
malay quiz didnt go so well.
:( i need to buck up!!!
jacq boleh!
btw, while revising my notes, i saw this:
batok = cough
bukit = hill
which makes bukit batok a cough hill, totally didnt make any sense! LOL




sulks. it's a 2 red cars day or rather 3 green cars day. if you've read the book, you would know. christopher, an autistic boy, rates how happy his day will be by the number of red cars he sees on his way to school. cause red is his fav colour and he dislikes yellow so seeing red cars would signify a happy day ahead but yellow cars would be the reverse. i like yellow so i shall label bad days with green cars.

oh well. instead of sulking cause of tomorrow's two tests (adv driving which im on page 18 of the 122 pages, and malay class quiz which is thankfully ungraded and open-book but i have an extremely high tendency of failing both of them), i shall thank two people for making it a two red cars day.

1. im glad i studied with vicvic today! :) reminded me of the good old days back in sem one! :) :) big hugs dearie! thurs are for US!

2. even though
-the grand piano at the backstage of nanyang audi is now locked up in the piano store by selfish piano ensemble peeps
-we didnt get to finish even one quarter of secret cause school connection sucks and crunchyroll hangs
-i didnt get to hear you play secret (very very upseting)
-we didnt get to go botak jones and blah blah...
but
im glad to see you! :)
and be happily reminded of your bimbo-ness! LOL
like you've said, it's been a while!

p.s. dont wash dirty linen in public! about locks and cars, keep that to yourself please ;)

oh ya. i caught rat-a-ratrat last night!!! with free drinks, cheezels, popcorn, great company and an abundance of laughter!
so today's trivia toon goes to REMY! or rather the marvellous makers of rat-a-too-ee! :D
dont kill them poor creatures!!!



i shall hit the books again. trust me, gorging helps to de-stress. it's amazing how choc lifts your spirits though it's just mars choc ( quite ew. i know ) no wonder our dear class rep matin ate 4 packets of maggie that time! he's a real cutie i swear!
what happened to chalet and class outing, skaters :S


since i'm still not sleepy or rather i still cant sleep :(
here's another entry :)

taking the bus to school today, i thought about how guys are so different from girls. not in any good or bad way. just different.
like how jingyun and teow were "arguing" which species is more complex, the male or female? the common belief would be that women are more complex by nature. i am inclined on that view too. but somehow the world's changing so rapidly that perhaps, humans are evolving too, such that we are all becoming more complicated. the olden days were simple. men took care of bringing home the bread while women worried about every other thing from kids to washing clothes and gossiping at the market. presently, with gender equality and shared responsiblities, the very things that complicate women are worries of men too. however, guys might be simpler in their thinking for they still stick to practical ways to solve their problems. women tend to let our emotions get in the way. then again, there's the sensitive new age guy SNAG! OK, it's a debatable issue.

blea. maybe i am tired. POOF!
have a pleasant wednesday, my friends! :)


i shall reward myself with blogging time since i have completed half of acct tut (: this entry is expected to be a long one!
cause i'm feeling fresh like a daisy though it's three plus alr!!

AGM
like myra has said, agm was indeed a jolly event.
but it made me really miss abc days
and edlyn and mister chong!
cant wait to see you this sun boss. you've practically been MIA!
then i saw this sweetie pie email from edlyn. (:
it was about a pastor's son and a granny.
but certain 3 things started me thinking.

Three things
in life that, once gone, never comes back -
1. Time
2. Words
3. Opportunity

Three things in life that are most valuable -
1. Love
2. Family & Friends
3. Kindness

Three
things in life that are never certain -
1. Fortune
2. Success
3. Dreams

Three things that make a person -
1. Commitment
2. Sincerity
3. Hard work

No one falls in love
by choice,
it is by CHANCE.
No one stays in love
by chance,
it is by WORK.
And no one falls
out of love by chance,
it is by CHOICE.

talking to bernard today made me start to worry about my attachment, my career and where my interest lies. i procrastinate too much. so here's a piece of advice to my dear friends, do start planning your attachment, career etc. just reading up and finding out more helps to get a clearer picture so that we wouldnt end up panicking when we reach year three, having to juggle interview preparations and the much heavier workload. then did i realise that my previous random thoughts corner was actually reflective of the need to start to find out about the whole acct career. i have unknowingly put it at the back of my head for way too long. enough said, all of us shall start working hard towards our bright bright future!

oh yes. another achievement for today that i nearly forgot to mention.
i went to src's gym for the first time! :D
estelle and i had helluva time figuring out the equipments and laughing ourselves silly while exercising! do you know how much you were missed LUM! we wished you were around to provide gyming tutorials! haha

RETRO MAMA! everyone should really watch this and get a taste of how music videos were like back in the eighties!it's hilarious! enjoy! ring ring



in case shin's jealous that yest's trivia toon was for brenda, this is for you! remember how the spasm incident made us laugh so hard? :)



and congrats on being 8th in the ultimate airband competition! *claps!!!
i hope your bandmates dont mind me featuring this!
http://www.uab.com.sg/uabvideo_index.php
check the first video out! my roomie's the one in white! :)

each footstep is a new love letter ♥
, 3:18 AM

the guessing game

guess what!!!
im at home AGAIN! :\
im a spoilt bad kid, period.

i have been contemplating giving up hall life altogether. but there are many things holding me back.
i am thinking through it still. thinking very hard.

i simply cant wait for the happiest things to happen. i'm anticipating malay on tue, wed's lunch,hg801 and RAT-a-ratrat, thur's solo secret performance by piano prodigy and my income on FRYDAE!!!anw i havent found your scores YET ): school starts to become draining and sap us of our lithium batteries. cause the workload's getting heavier and that's not something to look forward to. just thinking about the next few sems to come makes me feel so apprehensive. I remb mugging hard only at the last part of the last 2 sem ( explains why last min mugging makes my results so cui ) and it was still qt possible to catch up, in a way. but that's not the case anymore!!! we are into week 5 and work's piling like skyhigh! and it just keeps piling...
so are my obligations... (do up sistie's blogg, cpa aussie stuff blah blah.. just to name a few)
can you imagine if i had a cca, i would probably have pulled out all of my hair.

whines whines. all i know how to do is complain. grrr
if i still cant learn to manage my time and money better, i will just end up hating myself more :(((
but today's relatively happy still
it was one of the better tax classes cause moira khaw was in a fantabulous mood
so we all got to see how mediacorp has lost a talent!
*does the nonchalent patting of the ends of her shoulder length hair with a "i'm a diva" expression*
i shall call that the moira's trademark move. LOL
actually, she's not really THAT intimidating.
in fact, she sounds like a really good mummy. she's always talking about her kids though usually in that sarcastic tone that is both witty and funny.

fact of the day
i dedicate today's trivia toon column to BRENDA! :D
thankew for the sweet sweet message! you know how much i treasure your company in hall too! XO XO and OX OX!
and how much we like to snack together then sulk and compare tummies! haha


p.s. you are so bad at guessing games

currently listening to:
the scientist, coldplay
a classic all time favourite :)

each footstep is a new love letter ♥
Tuesday, September 04, 2007 , 2:43 AM

backtohall

i think im in love with woodwood lib.
a big part of me wants to continue staying home so i can study at woodwood lib as often as i can
it's the best place to study! with internet access, nice galilee food and slurpy hot choco
it feels like time will stop for you there
and i somehow like the fact that noone will watch you cause they're too pre-occupied with whatever they're doing.
but i know that i will miss out on alot of things. i will be missing the front part of alot of my 830 lessons and missing jango's many dinner and supper outings. i will miss doing funny dances and catwalks in hall with shin and gossiping with bren and wendy too
SO...
i guess i have to get used to a slack hall life and try to force myself to study in my stuffy room ( now that i killed my fan )

well, i've just got a new tuition assignment! cheers to the much-needed income!
cause my sec 3 smartypants girl got a1 for both her a&e math common tests, her mum is asking me to tutor her p5 sis! wooots!!! :D that's fab improvement from a F grade in amath just 2months ago! she's such a smartytart! so am i!!! HURHUR

random thoughts corner:
if i were a millionaire's perempuan,
i would still go to uni cause a good education matters alot.
but i would go to smu fass or nie!
or buy my way into medicine school,
and then pull strings to be a pediatrician
or try my luck to be a stewardess
then take lessons for ballet, dancing,
singing and playing drums, violin and piano!
and be a full-fledged SHOPAHOLIC!
go for high-tea day in day out
and skip lessons in between
blea. i cant continue fantasizing
im qt glad im not born with a silver spoon in my mouth
i know how i would squander away every cent of my parent's wealth
im glad to be able to taste the bitter-sweetness of life
and learn to appreciate what i have
ohh. hear the sourness in me.
i'm just disparaging the high life cause im jealous

haha. but it has always been a wonder
how my future will turn out to be.
for most people, they've already got theirs all planned out
maybe even before they stepped into uni
there's so much uncertainty for me
i wish i could have a plan too
cause frankly speaking,
i think i cant endure the strenuous workload of an acct
or rather i dont think im capable enough

but life isnt about finding the easiest way out
i have to LEARN to EMBRACE my future occupation!
okay, off to the movies with my folks!
shall continue hugging the books back in hall

may everyone have a great WEEK FIVE muggers!!!

each footstep is a new love letter ♥
Sunday, September 02, 2007 , 3:30 PM

shadows

looking through photos taken in the past, i remember being young again

1. Febuary 21, 2007. that was me kissing ronald at jp. it has something to do with being high at night when all the shops have closed and not many eyes are watching.


2. August 30, 2007. at cck ljs
even cam-whoring can make people cry! LOL. look at ahthiong me! a little ET looking huh

3. July 23, 2007. heritage fest at acm
look at those endless legs! scaryyyyy :S

at toy museum, we saw the longest ever hopscotch mat!

it was like being transported back to the past.
a pity that most parents seldom buy toys now. it seems like toys are rapidly being replaced by pc games.

4. June 30, 2007. at topshop wisma
a day of indulging in bonbon. *daydreams about giant lolli and jellybeans from candyempire
i love those baby clothes!!!


5. September 1, 2007
finger-licking popeye chicken! explains the chilli-stained fingers. HAHA
i wonder who else eats with almost all ten fingers!

i couldnt find our changi photo 2yrs ago
amazingly, it's almost exactly the same


didnt know my cam can achieve qi's zizi effect too :)



it's scary just to look down from where i was standing



trivia toon for the day:

each footstep is a new love letter ♥
, 2:20 AM

babytalk

ALOHA!!!
happy first day of September!

as din has mentioned, the mousetrap needs more bait. thus, catching of the rat has to be postponed to wed. ):
it was a good joke tho.

the next movie i'm gonna promote is EVAN ALMIGHTY!
i still remember liking Bruce Almighty alot alot four years back.
at sixteen, i had a taste of being a bad kid. not those who do really bad stuff, i merely broke a lot of rules my government (my parents) had set. i enjoyed the thrill of breaking rules, like skipping tuition, staying up late, sneaking out of house early to catch the sunrise and sneaking into cinemas (okay, dont point fingers at me. i only did that once :( ) such squirelly behaviour huh! well, i've grown up. i dont do those mindless stuff anymore. right.
it's like living in denial.

somehow, being young grants you reliance. you dont need to be responsible for your own life. your parents will take care your financial and emotional needs. they will cushion your falls. but as you grow up, you will have to learn to cope with everything on your own. now, i'm speaking like a kid who still wants to stay in nevernever land till i am ready. i dont want to budge. this is how childish i am.

anyhows, i'm mugging at woodwood library again. *big grins*
this is to make me more guilt-free should i be a wanderteen tonight.

catch me at channel 8's "like father, like daughter", 9pm on weekdays!
lol. that's the comments that i've been getting lately. WELL, i dont really look like her right? maybe its the flat face and ever-so-hard-to-conceal-eyebags ):

each footstep is a new love letter ♥
Saturday, September 01, 2007 , 1:43 PM