i'm so exhausted.
BUT yowwhee~
phase one application for attachment is finally finally finally over!
it has caused everyone much agony, re-typing particulars and cracking our heads over which company to apply to etc.
this reminds me, i'm so thankful to have met lingling today. even though i just knew her from my elective class, she was so kind to share all her pa tips with me and talking to her made me so much clearer of where to head to for attachment. :D she's extremely nice!
today, i went lib mugging with ryan after our respective electives. before anything else, i was feeling gluttonish=jacqish and we digged into the infamous nie noodles! still as yummilicious :D then, instead of studying, that guy started playing some very primitive comp game called heroes II ??! and guess what? He has even more outdated arcade games in his lappie! okay, i think it's cool and i really liked the idea of having to "add credits" (i.e. press the number 9 as many times as possible) before you can start the game. it's like endless arcade fun just that you need not insert coins! vvv interesting!

puzzle bubble!!!


and this funny shooting game which proves that i'm really a time-crisis idiot who cant aim for nuts! but i felt the most thrilling part was snatching for power-ups/ life-ups/other incentives that appear almost every other 5 secs!


it was a lot of fun but i soon realised that time was running out and i should really be starting on my resume and pa application. in the midst of doing, that idiot realised he actually hasnt completed his pa application either!!! OMG! we got so panicky and uppity cause the lib was closing, he needed to go to glory's place and i didnt want to go back late! haha but we still got everything settled eventually! :D

before elective, geok li hui, vic and i also took some pictures :)
and some comm studies people started this getyoursexyback campaign on binge drinking in canteen b today. it's a really cool initiative for fyp! and i love the rubber ring that says "sexy"! i have a sexyyyy ring :D





our sexyyehh rings!


because g says it's okay and i just have to square with it, i feel slightly better though the things that run through my mind everyday is almost like an old sound track..


today i made not one but two of the same mistake ):
i simply forgot. ):
fancy me debating to skip school to follow tim and geri to sentosa :S
i didnt eventually but it meant forgetting that i had planned 27dresses with g
and also mugging with ryan ):
URG. when can i learn ) :
yea, demented's the word


geriberi and tim have recently started this "lock jacq in the house so that we can play" movement. it includes many other initiatives like pyscho-ing her to skip school, teaching her poker=life skills, pretending to be asleep at 3am so that my dad wouldnt know we are awake but we end up falling asleep anyway and of course, proposing supper in the wee hours! if you noticed, we proposed but didnt act on it cause the chubbywubs are just plain lazy so tim had to sleep it off. ohyes! tim says there is botak jones in woodlands! OMG! can you believe it??? WOW! and tonight, we will be "hanging out" again. when geri insists that we hang out, it just means peering into our own comps but being in the same room. HAHA. okay, maybe for the first half an hour only. thereafter, i'll be attending tutorials on life skills. =)

these are the times that i wonder how lonely and sad i would be when i look inside their room 12 days later... ):


i went to citysquare with the whole family of chubbywubs today! tim included (: we had marry brown's, very yummy chicken! there wasn't much to shop or play but what made me really happy was finding secret recipe! lovely cakes :D it just brought back fond memories of eating cakes with def back in kl. we called it "the heart-attack way", that is passing the cakes around in one direction such that everyone got to taste each cake's goodness! (pictures later!)

saturday was eventful! :D
vicvic and i went to a seminar in town and went shopping too! after she left to get her hair colored, geokies came to town! we waited an hour plus to get a table at sushi tei but the wait was totally worthwhile. as usual, we ate like queens! a beef don, salmon don, sauteed salmon with mushrooms in cream sauce, jumbo chawanmushi and softshell crab rolls! heh. my lovely bestie gave me a treat (: (: (: are you hungry and jealous now? (((:

geok insisted that we take out our sushi pen and so we did. haha




infected by geok's recent cam-craze, i had a great deal of fun blending into posters and being silly at paragon and around town! (:




geok, the prosperous mouse!






13 Jan
and today, i finally uploaded pictures taken at jeremy's 22nd! my first high tea at marriot. the birthday boy treated us to an extravagant meal. and to match up to the mango cheesecake i got, i gave him cuppies! thanks to gerie's help, they look nice! he likes them so much that he seatbelted the box :D HAHA! and it was really good meeting nik and marcus after so long! and seeing abraham for the first time too!

not too bad looking for a first attempt right? (:





sundays i've always liked sundays cause i like waking up to noise in the house and knowing everyone's at home. but chubbywubs me decided to laze a little more in bed and so i plugged in my ipod. i soon discovered that one of the best times to listen to a song carefully was in mornings like these. it was a nice feeling, not to be thinking about anything, just listening intently.
After everything
And when she dreams
She sees herself in her Sunday dress
Humming simple melodies
She's known since she was only three
`sundays, daphne loves derby

just some lyrics and a whole mess
today is a winding road
i don't know
i walk away, only to realise i'm back at square one
and i can no longer see
ghosts with just voices
i lay down on the cold ground
take heart
now that i'm older, i can see where i am going
i'll keep walking
now, to places i've never been
we are who we were when
and now it stops at this
if these walls could sing
you're repeating me lines that you think I wanna hear
but I don't wanna hear anymore




When you're fighting the current,
You forget how to live

jeanne really made my day today! i was so happy to hear from jianwen that she was looking for me cause she's in school selling laptop skins. she even offered to do one for me (: and my, she looks so glowy and happy with her new short hair! this reminds me, i shall start writing cny cards to them! i still remember only writing one cny card last year and it was for her and her alone (:

jeanne's the lady in pink! she's my fav sponsor! this was taken during nbs week, in Jan 2007! it's unbelievable how one year just flew past like that!



i had fun with vicvic at leeweenam after school today. obviously, we took another million photos again and we ended up not accomplishing a lot of overdue work ): it was a fairly draining day that left vicvic stoning very much like a little girl on our way home. haha

ohoh, just look at how sweet she is! this collage is by her! and there's a picture which we took with someone in mind! HAHA!





and geex. i have absolutely no idea why we look like we are in such agony?!


and the day before, was one of the most sardine-packed day. i was awake for close to 24hours after that 12hour knockout. first was lessons, then elec and slacking around school with ryan before meeting din to pass him his 21st pressie. soon after was hall olym which i was very glad to be there to witness shin's and wendy's great cheer! :D uhhh, mambo thereafter was insane!! it has to be one of the craziest! i shall let geok's words take over from here.

you're looking at 11pm, at orchard, on the way to zouk. just me and the lovely j! (: it was party party party and it was freaking fun!!!!!!!!! we bumped, no, we collided at high speed into daryl!!! can you believe that mambo freak. it was extremely cheesy, moments ago jacq was still asking if i think we would meet them today.

as usual the king was in a estatic party mood, along with his prince, jeremy, and it was movin' all night long. literally. my favourite is love in the first degree!!! oh my goddd.. the actions are wayy too cute. hahaha! and we had square rooms, call me, leave a light on for me, all the favourite mambo numbers!!! not to mention alot alot of retros, which simply rocked my socks!! hahaha. though i wasnt wearing any :D

and we phuture-ed too, me and jacq. its brilliant, with this crowd limit thing, there is finally breathing space!!!! even though it didnt really work out like we thought it would, hohoho. (it was a line dance horror, and the sweat-shirt nightmare and the drama king. what a crowd!)

23 jan
us before mambo

post mambo

roaming the streets in those unearthly hours

it was indeed much fun with the mambo kings and their nanhua gang around! we were surprised to see shawn there too! she's bursting with happiness, having just gotten back from california! we were so jealous! and she's so pretty now! it comes with being happy, really!
about mambo, i've realised that maybe i've aged. it has always been an outlet to unwind and i've enjoyed dancing and being crazy very much. but it's no longer the same now, i can't understand why either. probably, the exhaustion that follows after isnt such a good trade-off? i dont know man. but bestie, you've always been my fav dancing queen! i hope vic and bren will join us some day, hopefully during recess week! :D

24 jan
on thur, i practically zombied my entire day away!
this is a sushi pen that steph estelle lum ryan bought for me, after seeing a sushi keychain that shin gave me. geok likes it very much and we really brought it to sushi tei! LOL

it was amazing how i gathered energy to visit the gym with bren and tutor in the evening. haha.



did you look up to the sky this day?
the moon was like a whole mirror,
beaming bright and slightly yellow,
a gleaming glow.

did you look up to the sky this day?
the stars were a magnificent lure,
definitely dazzling and a bit bewitching,
saying something.

if only i could read the stars
and the million other things they say
oh, how wonder if you saw the moon today.

And if we feel the silence
Leaving this all behind us
When it's gone what will you say..
feel the silence, goo goo dolls


i shall say this again - jacq is a happy chubbywub!
last night at 7pm, i intended to take a nap and guess what? i slept for 12 hours straight and i just woke up!

today feels great!
the sun isn't even out now but i can feel it shining down on me ( :



the magic of good sleep!


this is for my best companion


eve wrote this on a card for geok and i like it very much.

" The sun will come out tomorrow,
bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow,
there will be sun!

Thinking about tomorrow
cheers away the cobwebs and the sorrow
'til there's none!

When I'm stuck a day
that's gray, and lovely
I just stick out my chin.
And grin.
And say, oh the sun'll come out tomorrow.
so ya gotta hang on 'til tomorrow."
-from "Annie" the musical

my best friend says: "it's an accident."
and i say, it's the most beautiful accident. (:



we know this friendship is for a lifetime!




27 DRESSES!

i caught it today with vic! (: after 6 hours at je lib! yesyes, it's only two weeks into school and i'm already mugging at the lib! vic and i will be there again tom cause this weekend's gonna be busy. call me kiasu/paranoid, i dont care! jacq wants to be a happy mugger! :D well, can't beat the sec 4 kids and acjc boys who are starting to prepare for year end exams now! though i feel it's a tad too early but it's always good to start early. way to go kids! (: oh, it still sucks to feel old next to them. uhhh ) :

27 DRESSES centres on Jane (Heigl), an idealistic, romantic and completely selfless woman... a perennial bridal attendant whose own happy ending is nowhere in sight. But when younger sister Tess captures the heart of Jane's boss - with whom Jane is secretly in love - Jane begins to reexamine her "always-a-bridesmaid..." lifestyle.

to me, this is not just any romantic comedy chick flick or whatsoever. it has a striking resemblance to "how to lose a guy in 10 days" in terms of it's story line but i like this better cause of the flamboyant dresses, the many fancy yet highly-commercialized weddings and the "always a bridesmaid" concept. most of all, I felt that I could relate to Jane in certain ways. For starters, she has an attractive sistie whom she grew up to be quite envious of. Like her, i have a beautiful sistie whom i pride myself upon. (: Jane is also a hopeless romantic, a severe one who's crazy over weddings! And, she has one of my biggest flaws which i'm still working hard to correct. There are several occasions that my problem has caused hurt to my dear friends and even my family. urg. ny eve was one of them. People have been very forgiving but i know i've got to learn to be firmer and more resolute. i'll keep trying (:
oh, i also like the way they rolled the credits! i shan't reveal any more! it's a great show! though second to "national treasure" which i can easily give a 5 popcorns rating, it's still a show not to be missed! (:

vic and i had great fun taking peektures today ( :



this has got to be my favourite, we look ecstatically happy!



In how many places did you let your mind go free in?
In how many worlds did you live?
And you said all the world was dreaming
All the world, Electrico


19 Jan i'll remember today, my first official rainbow day! so much joy fills my heart that i couldn't stop smiling on the way home. even every song in my ipod is a happy one. today's the start of something that i hope will last for a long long time cause i know that it will be one of the best things that has happened this year. (: you probably don't understand any of this gibberish or can't relate to my merriment but this has always been something that i wanted to do. somehow or another, i felt as if i've found a calling for teaching. i'm not very certain of my direction in life but i'm really glad for today. to douglas, hidayah and mrs trinidad, thank you for today (: and to more days to come!

i've been wanting to post a poem that my junior melinda wrote for me back in st nicks. i still kept autograph books back then. heh! old school (aka old class to bren)!!!

"There's always a silver lining in every cloud you look."
This sentence came out of a book,
I read when I was three.
And this comforted me
when I was sad and tired,
when I was required
to do well in school,
when I felt like a fool.

I remembered that quote,
that some famous man spoke.
I looked for that lining
even when I was crying.
Hoping to find a way,
when I had a bad day.
To reach out to happiness,
to ask for forgiveness,
when I had done something wrong,
I looked for that lining,
even when I was crying.

I have grown so old.
Tears and laughter form my mould.
I have learnt to hide my sadness,
tried to ask for forgiveness,
when I knew I did something
so horrid, so mean , so unforgiving.
I try to improve my day,
by comforting myself and say,
There's a silver lining in every cloud,
the saying I had repeated, as a child.


ugly betty never fails. it always leaves me thinking about life and all the nitty gritty things...

The beauty in ugly - Jason Mraz as featured in ugly betty :)



She’s so big hearted
But not so remarkable
Just an ordinary humble girl
Expecting nothing as we’re made to think
It’s a pretty person’s world

But you are beautiful
And you better go show it
So go look again
You gotta be true to your own
If you really wanna go to the top
Do you really wanna win
Don’t believe in leaving normal
Just to satisfy demand

Well if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
And see the beauty in ugly

Well you are fresh

Your face is fabulous
Don’t forget you’re one of a kind
When nobody’s checking the deeds you’ve done
And nobody’s hearing your cries
You make all the fashion statements
Just by dressing up your mind

And if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart
For the sake of your heart and all
You should own your name
And stand up tall and get real
And see the beauty in ugly
And see the beauty in ugly


15 Jan
meeting up with cass after eons! i realised that i really miss this girl! it was indeed a jolly affair :D so glad!



12 Jan
my cousin annabelle's wedding.
the boy you see here is the cutest boy i've met so far! he's my five year old cousin jayden! just look at how photogenic he is! he's a very cheeky lil brat but he's so irresistibly cute that anyone would die to bring him home!



thereafter was an awesome night of great music at MOSH! it was the first time that geok and i saw epicurie perform and we were totally awed! :D now, we're eagerly waiting for their debut album (: (:



this is the entire bunch!



then was supper at glutton's bay!



okay, i'll be back to backblog about both jer's bday, my dad's birthday, kl and new year's eve! tonight's ugly betty night with my bestie! (:
HAPPY WEEKEND EVERYONE! :D


the noose/news

ooh... it's been a really long time since i last blogged! i wanna backblog all the way from new year's eve! the next post will be a really lengthy one so here's some titbits!

this is the noose, a channel 5 show highly recommended by jeremy who's the number one fan of michelle chong! he's into all sorts of bimbos. and WOW, she's really hilarious in this show! sadly, i only managed to catch the last 15mins of the final episode. previously, i always thought of the show to be a typical mediacorp sitcom and didn't take the effort to catch it despite his fervent recommendations. and geex, how wrong was i! this comedy provides a great opportunity for apathetic youths like me to catch up with current affairs and enjoy a hearty laugh at the same time! two thumbs up! now, ENJOY! :D

the noose, 9 Dec part one




because mr sun, the so-called geri's friend, has decided to take an extended afternoon nap with mrs clouds (she's a gloomy person with dark skin cause she stays by mr sun through all seasons, more of the rainy ones lately), he has decided not to grace our sistie swimming outing at the polo club. our wet weather program was to gym but our rumbling tummies couldn't resist a good feast at the cafe. tim was more disciplined and headed to gym first. so here i am, in the internet room with a bloated tummy after a hearty meal of carbonara and lobster soup. my sis is in another corner, toally immersed in a world of crunchyrolls and nothing else! i've seemingly started to indulge in this lifestyle that they call "chubbywubs". :/

oh yes, i was to blog about my very adorable sistie. she claimed the password to access the computer was "lunch" which i tried thrice but to no avail. then, she suggested "dinner" which i thought was absurd but still made two fruitless attempts at it. now totally amused, i tried "breakfast" which hung the computer! HAHA!
the password was "swim" by the way.


it feels so good to have no school today!!! i think i just slept 11hours straight! :D
today's sistie outing day! to swim, tan and play wii at tim's place!

grrr. i tell others to keep the negative thoughts at bay but it seems hard for me to do so. i keep getting bogged down by my procrastination and my undone assignments. okayokay, im just a worryfreak. hey! school barely started! RELAX!
i'm gonna have some good fun this weekend! it's both jer's birthday, MOSH, cousin's wedding and high tea!this is why i just keep getting fatter!!!



far away, this ship is taking me far away...

on a sidenote, to some people (actually i think it's only mark), happy birthday in chinese is "gong xi fa cai" ! i almost died laughing last night! ohoh, mark also tried singing whatcomesaroundgoesaround! HAHA! not that i can sing, but it's still kinda funny :D


the riversong



if you listen
you can hear the city call
in the night lights
here you'll find her
toss and tumble
standing watching over you
in the darkness
it gets clearer

the city in the night time
you can hear the city call
hearing voices...
running through these paper walls
hear the river
as it runs right through your halls
you can feel it
you can feel it...

in those moments
with the street lights in your eyes
dreaming secrets

cold silence makes me cold
as the people they whizz pass me
. . .

dreaming secrets...
i'm trying to adapt but i miss hall life very much ) :
shall get back to my assignments! grrr
on a happier note, my best is BACK!!! with tons of goodies for ME! HURHUR!


ok, i cant fall asleep so i shall blog about today. i had a really long and exhausting day of school, helping daddy at work while dozing off (the irony!) and meeting steph for xlb in the evening! it was a pity that both of us had to rush home soon after dinner else our parents would really scream our heads off ):

actually, i enjoyed my first day in school like how i always like school re-openings because i get to see my friends and it's a nice feeling to be back after a long break! but when work starts piling in, such feelings of enthusiasm wear off very easily. im so glad that clara's in my ab214 class :) and i quite like my comm tutor, shirley alexander though her expectations of us are really high and im quite worried for mon's presentation. roars. it's only the first week and yes, there's a pre-test assignment due on wed and a presentation to be prepared for next mon! :S i'm really not complaining cause i've promised myself to be an outright mugger this sem.

there's so much i wanna backblog about - kl, dimsum outing with sistie, new yr's eve and everything else. but it'll take a really long time and i'm getting a little tired! YAY!

p.s. i hope you'll be alright babe!much loves! you just need a little time dear!
bestie, hope you're having the time of your life at bkk! i heard about your crazy shopping! can't wait for you to be back!!! I MISS YOUUU ):



i miss kl a lot! ):

shall return to blog about all that has happened!