when you dislike yourself, you cant seem to smile.
you question yourself and you cant find an answer
you just have to keep going, keep going

i dislike my apathy
i cant overcome my "natural" sloth
what has become of me?
i cant seem to smile
and i only have myself to blame

why am i becoming so cynical?
i wish i could blog about happier things all over again
may i see a better me in the coming week
meanwhile, i shall keep away from all distractions e.g. blogging

sometimes, i wish i had the courage to make big decisions
and perhaps i would be happier off doing what i enjoy
something that comes more naturally
but i know i cant always look on the other side
thinking that the grass is greener there
see how turtle-ly i am
another reason for the dislike