regret. i've never liked this word.
certainly, i would never wanna live in regret for the things i have done/have not done. i've always tried to make decisions such that i will not regret my actions in future. but it always happens and i really detest myself for that. had i been less distracted, i would have kept to the promise i made to myself and probably, she would have been better and things wouldnt be the way they are today. all i do is wallow in self-pity and bury myself in my own troubles.

there's no point crying over spilt milk. i keep telling myself to be forward-looking and to find a solution. i need to compile a list of to-dos, get down to doing them and meet the people i want to meet, before it's too late.

to my bestie, sorry that i ruined betty night again.

i really wished i was smarter. then maybe, i could remember more things. i could be more efficient and i would manage my time better. i could have done so much more things. but then again, i can't blame it on that. ultimately, it's sincerity that counts. did i even have that in the first place? what i promised myself could be so easily forgotten? i was certain that my little effort would have made a difference so why didnt i carry it through?

i've learned that there are some things that you have to live and learn because you can turn back time nor make up for it. it's too little, too late.