there's something that i carry with me everyday. it's like a clinging on my weary heart and sometimes, a singing in my dreams. i thought i had left it on a faraway place but only to find that maybe, it has never left. more often than not, what i try isnt what i get. so i just carry it with me wherever i go, till i'm ready to let it all go.



it's been a trying week. the next few weeks are foreseen to be even tougher with project deadlines drawing nearer and exams in less than 20 days. i always see myself succumbing to these fears and worries, every semester without fail. urg ): it's something that i can't battle with because my guilt forbids me to. i'm guilty of being lazy. i envy the conscientious who only highlight my slack. my anxiety overwhelms me and im consumed by procrastination. clearly, ive been stressed or rather a little depressed. and it sucks. like i just wanna shut myself from the world to deal with my own issues. it all sounds too familiar. right now, i'll just stay focused and let happy things keep me going.

a couple of happy stuff happened!
first of all, EURO LOVE!
i'm going to find my darling sister and fugitive lookalike tim at vienna! 21jul-7aug! a whopping fat three weeks of EURO LOVE! gonna miss three days of yr3sem1 but it's all worth it! cause we're traveling to paris and paris AND PARIS AND LONDON! did i say PARIS?? :D and it will be from the new Terminal 3!! :) :) :)
(p.s. jo! i'm so coming to find youuu and eve! heh! ( : )
2. We celebrated mummy's 45th yest! with geriberi and tim over skype! and with another high cholesterol meal of chilli crabs, black pepper crab, curry prawns and mango cake! all too finger-lickingly good! don't you just love my life? ;p i get fat crab meals every other week! keke

3. fun-o-rama and st nicks home run were held today but had to miss both. it was a good busy saturday still. i rushed to tuition, went club rainbow (after a good one mth break! :D ) and went to schoo to mug with vic and geokies thereafter.

4. this week started with a lovely 3 days intensive camp at room 88 (as named by shin)! i so wanted to blog about hall earlier and how much i really really really miss staying with bren wendy shin ): i thought i would feel awkward since it's been a while that i shifted out but i couldnt have felt more at home during those three days. ( : because some things don't change. the nice warm fuzzy feeling stays. it's not so much of nostalgia but more of familiarity.

(when we were only 19,young and very happy!haha)

call me fortunate! i witnessed another episode of intrusion by an unwelcomed creature. that's if you remb an older post on the attack of a moth. this time, it's a gross huge roach with extra long feelers. very disturbing to even describe it :S i was too stressed doing work in bren's room while shin jessica and jess' bf were battling it with baygon in the other room. i only peeped when the show was over and a final potent attack of baygon intoxicated the fallen insect.
and frank shin bren and wendy ganged up against me. okay, shin started it. they told me i had to sleep in frank's room on the first night ) : i was wondering why bren couldnt go instead but well, they were mean and they lied and they got me ):
haha. but it turned out that sleeping where really wasnt an issue cause bren and wendy offered to let me sleep in betw them and shin said i could sleep with her too! dont be jealous, i slept with shin on both nights! haha. we took some pics! ( : i'll just show the best one here!



everything we had,
everything we had,
I'll be with you wherever you go,
through the eyes of a fly on the wall