Birds pass by to tell me that I'm not alone



yesterday, i saw many things as i walked.
i saw a large withered leaf falling from high above; the only one blown to the roads far away, away from where the trees are. my heart sank with it.
i saw school children, still clad in uniforms, playing hide-and-seek at the playground. I smiled, looking at their gleeful faces but their laughters i could not hear. I felt lost and confused.
I saw a boy with his school bag on his back, walking backwards as he bumped into me. I found myself thinking that I, too, had been living life backwards. every inch forward was uphill.
I saw a man in crutches, one leg in a cast. he had to hurl his body up each step with difficulty. my heart went out to him.

it's funny what i desperately try to hold back only comes back time and again.
It's not supposed to be like that.
i try to erase, only to leave new traces behind.

my bff says being emo isn't glamorous anymore. that made me laugh but sometimes, i just can't help it.

Don't wait, Don't wait
The lights will flash and fade away
The days will pass you by

The road is now a sudden sea...