i'm really glad i re-scheduled tuition and went back for FOC to witness nanyang lake and be reminded of all the fun i had when i was a freshie. though it was a short time, i really enjoyed myself, just walking past hall two, being drenched in the rain with brenda and running without my shoes to catch the bus. i miss every single thing but i cant help holding myself back. the same frightful question was repeating in my head and i knew i had to face it sooner or later. what will be, will be. i knew the answer since then.
and yet something lingers.
a soft whimper, no one hears.